The Meaning Behind the Pause
God isn't teasing you. He's preparing you.
The pause God asks us to take is never meant to frustrate us – it’s meant to inform us. – Mya Kay
There are so many “starts” and “stops” that I’ve experienced in the last two years that if I’m honest, it would be hard not to feel like God has been teasing me with the call on my life. Maybe you know all too well what that’s like. He gives you an idea, you fast, pray and even surrender it back to Him because you know that without Him, it won’t mean anything.
You flow in the Christian cliché of “wait on The Lord” and “Less of me, more of You” with whatever God has called you to build. If we’re honest, most of us have those down to a science. But when it’s time to put your money where your mouth is, how do you show up?
When God told me to re-launch the Mother/Daughter prayer call this past April, I was afraid to begin again. I’d been here before, in 2020, right smack dab during the pandemic. I never had an idea of what it was supposed to, or even what I wanted it to look like – I just wanted to obey God. So, I launched it. A little over three months later, it was time to stop it – again. What was I doing wrong? Why does it feel like when it comes to what God has called me to do, I have yet to find or be led into my flow of consistency?
Then it hit me. Girls Anthem not only belongs to God, it’s led by the Holy Spirit. This means, that however God wants to facilitate my anointing at any given moment, He gets to. I have to go into it with a pure heart of “just because my Father said so,” and nothing else. Is this hard? Extremely. Our flesh wants certain results when we set out to do anything, which isn’t inherently wrong. Why wouldn’t I create a goal of having 100 women call into a prayer call and pray about meeting that goal? We can dream big and ask God to meet us in the place of our obedience.
But it’s when we allow what we want to happen to override what God wants to happen that we find ourselves on the wrong side of glory. The prayer call wasn’t about starting a call that I would host over the next ten years of ministry with hundreds of women calling in each week (though, maybe one day, if it’s His will, God will allow that). It was about a need God had in the earth for the couple of women who joined me every Sunday or listened to the replay. It allowed them to get what they needed while fostering my voice to prepare me for when I will be speaking and leading more frequently.
Nothing is a failure in God’s eyes. Even when we feel stagnant, He’s using those pauses to equip us in a greater way. You’re probably wondering what I’ve been doing since then. I’ve been sitting in the secret place, at Jesus’ feet allowing Him to give me perspective for all that He’s about to do in my life and the world at large. The pause I just came out of has informed me about what Girls Anthem needs to look like to best represent God’s Kingdom, who I am as a daughter of God (not just as a leader), and how to always be okay going after the one.
Whether you’re writing full-time, working in the marketplace, or doing full-time ministry, trust the portion God has entrusted to you in this season. Don’t let the idea of a platform or “God enlarging your territory” make you forget that Jesus would leave the ninety-nine to go after the one. One blog post that touches one life matters. One prayer call that shifts a whole household matters; and one YouTube video that keeps a young person from committing suicide matters.
Enjoy whatever pause you’re in and get from it EVERYTHING God intended. Don’t waste it. Your next assignment is right around the corner.
Ya Girl, Mya Kay